Summer laidback

(oversized tee: thirfted, pants chinatown, espadrilles bought around sidewalk, dream cather from Baguio gift from a friend, 2 pieces bracelets Bomo) Photos by: Deo eloicui

I know this post is very late already but I’m giving it a heck now believing it’s still worth sharing. (Haha I hope so!)

This photo was taken way back summer of 2012 so before it will take its first Birthday here I’m releasing it now to you. See? Aren’t you also hate the thought of keeping back log photos over your draft? *sigh

I will no longer elaborate on what happen during the day I wore it, because honestly I forget everything already. Basically when its summer it is very evident that the sun is scorching hot in the morning which explains the wearing of light materials. In this case an oversized thrifted tee, a silk pants and a pair of espadrilles is a good source of comfort perfect for lazy-casual look which can be done in less than 5mins. 

Simple pieces+simple style= Good comfort

I hope your loving the look!

Ps: for those who are wondering why dyed my mane like this. I wonder it also. I can't explain but I know I look stupid! :)

♥

jaen

Why should I have to learn?

There were so many things I want to share right now. Things that bombarded me and Thoughts that keeps on ranting around. This is been the third time already that I experience this in my 20 years of existence here on earth. 3^rd time but have brought so much worst in my whole being.

I accept that I’m really a drama type of person which translates in every entry I post here. There’s always that certain drama behind and I guess it will forever be there. However this might be one of the most emotional of my entire drama scene. I hope you will forgive me for sharing this… I just don’t know how to handle the pain, the loss of this emotional drainage.

From the usual 6:30am when the alarm starts to chase my eardrums I woke up this morning having these heavy feelings. It was more on a mixed of emotions I say, there’s anguish, pain, hurt, regrets, sorrow that tranquil in my whole system. Hence I ditch in my morning class just because of it. I don’t know! But the pains affect me so much. So much that i don't already feel the pain. -I became numb! I feel like a balloon floating in the air. A radio playing in muted music. I maybe sound exaggerated now but it’s true so I pleased to pardon you with this emotional baggage.

I don’t think of anyone to share this emotional stress I’m going through, a friend is not what I need this time but an open world to understand what I’m going through. Sympathy will not make me feel okay. All I need is a space a silent world free from others scrutiny and judgment. I found the cyber world’s comfort so I choose to blog about this!

Soon as I reach school this morning, i sat down in our e-library and decided to blog about it. It is because of someone I consider a loss in my life I loss him a day ago. Not a family member you thought but someone special in me. Someone special that dig a deep hole in my heart and left without occupying the space. He left me for nothing what’s worst is that he left me hanging. He left me which i guessed was for good though he didn't tell me straight but i hint he did for me not to expect anything. I know i should not put the blame only to him but to myself as well. My fault for expecting more than what is supposed to be expected. I did not learn my lesson for the 3rd time. I know! I'm stupid. yes i admit it.

Regret is not the word to describe it but rather it’s self-inflicted. I realized that there’s no one to blame the fault but me. That I should not accused someone for not giving me the love and attention I needed. I have to stop blaming people. I know I should be the one to carry all the credits. If only from the beginning I took extra careful, then none of this will happen. But I’m no regret about it somewhere in between the tides are lesson learned. I may not choose the best option before but through this experienced i learned so many lessons which became my basis of love in the future. I may not experienced that fairytale love ending story but hey this will not stop me from looking for the prince charming. haha please don't judge me for this!

I feel relieve now. I guess i already let it all out! I have to go now and attend for my next class :)

Bring me back to normal

Denim:  DIY

Red pants: thrifted

Shoes: thrifted

Round sunnies: borrowed from friend

Necklace: Tomliz

Photos by: Deo eloicui

Blogging gets harder and harder for me to sustain lately. They’re times I spent an hour or two just by merely looking at the monitor trying to squeeze a zest of creative juices just to post something decent and relevant. Plus to some additional factors which hinders my way to blog. I would be lying to you if sometimes thinking of giving up for blogging never crossed on mind. -It did actually! Most of the time. But on a later end of the road something tells me not to do so. In that incident I lean towards inspirations.  -That they’re a lot of people (readers) waiting for my every entry to be publish. That in every kind words from people i get may it be in a form of comments or through personal sharing is something like a multivitamins that supplements and complete my day. That alone are enough already why I should continue in this business and aim for something more. (Okay enough about the drama. I sound cliché already)

Can I be honest? I don’t really know how to relate the outfit from the writings I’ve mention above. The only thing I Find common between the two is that I am becoming lazy lately.

Lazy to update this blog and lazy to take outfit shots. Hence to style! 

 

Ps: I’m still trying to bring back my sense to normal.

 

Hope you like the look!
xx-fimp

TODAY MY LIFE BEGINS

6 days have passed already and I totally bid goodbye for 2012. Now I welcomed 2013 with full hopes and great positive outlook in life. Now I want to concentrate more on the things that made me happy and not on the things that will make me feel sad. I will Forget all the pains that the previous year have brought me and to people that caused me aches before. I’ve finally forgiven you.BTW! And to all people whom I shared a life sucking year 2012. Thank you from the bottom pit of my heart! Cheers for the next 359 days remaining of fun and whirlwind emotions.

I’ve been missing in action for a while and I missed myself put into words. Sounds cliché huh? Aside from having positive perspectives this year. What I also look forward is having my first ever new year’s resolutions!!! Take note first ever with 3 exclamations after. Laugh me for having these late on dream list resolutions. To be honest I’m not a sucker for New Year’s resolutions. To me creating a such is terrible! Okay, (caught me) I’m quite lying. I tried having a sort of resolutions back then when i was a bit younger but it didn’t really work. Maybe enough for weeks though but not for whole year. I guess creating it such was a bit useless (on my part!) but fun enough to excite me! hehe. Honestly I was a bit lousy to accomplish a such list! But I guess time has change. now that I’m 20 and already matured enough to handle life and all its sorts i think now is the right time to make changes and venture into something thrilling. Will it be big or small as long as there’s changes its fine. After all it’s just merely resolutions we are still the one responsible to accomplish it. NOT anyone but you!

Here are some of changes I want to accomplish this year.

First on the list is...

1.     To purchase a book and to read more!

2.     Earn money

it will be more advantageous on my part if i get a job through blogging. Ahem! any sponsor out there? haha

3.     Be thrifty

Save.save.save!!!

4.     Write more. I mean blog often

will do my best! fingers cross*

5.     Lessen sugar intake. I’ll try!

6.     Buy 2 gadgets within a year.

Never too late to have them!

7.     Focus more on studies... lessen extracurricular activities such as gimmicks, parties etc.

Promise to go back on the Dean's Lister list this sem!

8.     Sleep more...

9.     Buy a lover! I mean find a lover. Haha

love.love.love ♥

There it is! My simple dream to do 2013 list nothing too impossible or fancy to attain, except for number 6.  I hope to accomplish everything.

looking forward for 2013!

cheers

xx

To end this post here's a song from Bruno Mars entitled 

Today My Life Begins.Enjoy :)